My first real blog post! EEEEEEK! I’ve wanted to write a blog for a while now, but it’s never felt like the right time. There’s just something about 27. It’s been a good year. It has shown me how abundantly blessed my life is, how lucky I am to have my health, a family that supports me, and a man who loves me more than anything. Together we are building a life of amazing possibilities, we have a roof over our heads and food in the cupboards. I have a job that pays the bills and then some, I’ve earned it and I work hard to keep it. And little by little, all these great things are teaching me how to love myself.
Life hasn’t always been easy, wait, who am I kidding...life is never easy. But there was a time when it was a LOT harder than it is now. I am a firm believer that everyone in life will come across a moment...a pocket in time where you can either take the exit to a new life path, or you can stay going the way you are and end up somewhere awful. Let me tell you, I was on the wrong path going so fast I’m surprised I was able to get off when I did. The fact that I’m even sitting here, healthy, ALIVE, has been by the grace of God. It has been 3 years of learning, changing, growing...all those things I was stunting by the actions I was taking to simply survive the hurt living inside of me.
I won’t shun those times, as they helped me become the person I am today. It took being so weak, to truly realize how strong that I could be. And it took an awful lot of hurt feelings, let downs, abuse, tears and pain to appreciate the love, laughter and peace in my life now. It took meeting a man who nearly took my life with the darkness that lived inside of him, to seek the man who put my heart back together again.
Again, by the grace of God I am alive. I will never stop being thankful for the flame that never quite went out, the seed that was planted and just waiting for a little nurturing to grow.
Today I stand tall, a proud believer that I am the daughter of the King, a loyal member of my family, and a devoted fiancé to the most amazing man I could’ve ever imagined. Today I reflect on my life and know, God had a plan for me all along...I still don’t know what his plan is but I will strive every day to turn my will over to let Him lead me through.
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